When Suicidal Ideation Is Present in CPtsd

Sep 7 / Linda Meredith
🧠 When Suicidal Ideation Is Present in CPtsd

Talking about suicidal thoughts takes courage on both sides.

For survivors, it can feel impossible to put words to what’s happening. The trauma-brain whispers:
“I’m too much. I’ll scare them away. No one will understand.”

But recovery begins when you practice asking for what you need - even in the smallest ways.
✨ “Can you sit with me?”
✨ “I don’t feel safe being alone right now.”
✨ “I don’t have the words, but I need you close.”
For supporters, it takes courage to stay steady in the face of someone else’s pain. Not to fix it, but to anchor safety:
✨ “You’re not a burden.”
✨ “I want to be here.”
✨ “You don’t have to go through this alone.”

For many of us, suicidal thoughts aren’t about “wanting to die.” They’re about not knowing how to keep living with the weight we carry.

It often sounds like this inside:
💭 “I should be able to handle this — I’m an adult.”
💭 “Why can’t I get this part of my life to function?”
💭 “I’ve tried everything… maybe nothing will ever change.”

That hopelessness isn’t weakness. It’s what happens when the trauma-brain loops survival messages on repeat.

And yet — even in those moments — it takes immense courage to:
✨ Pick up the phone and tell someone, “I’m not okay.”
✨ Send a text to reassure your safe person, “I just need you to know where I’m at.”
✨ Whisper the truth: “I don’t have the words, but I can’t hold this alone right now.”

For supporters, it also takes courage to stay steady in the face of that raw honesty. To resist fixing, and instead say:
✨ “You’re not a burden.”
✨ “You matter to me.”
✨ “I’ll sit with you through this.”

💡 Reflection Questions:
1️⃣ If you’re a survivor, what feels hardest about voicing what you need when suicidal ideation hits?
2️⃣ If you’re a supporter, what makes it hardest to stay present without rushing to fix?
3️⃣ For both: What would “courage in communication” look like in your relationship?

🌱 It isn’t about perfect words. It’s about practicing connection, one honest moment at a time.

💡 Additional Reflection Questions:
1️⃣ Survivors: What feels hardest about speaking those words out loud?
2️⃣ Supporters: What fears come up for you when someone you love says, “I’m not okay”?
3️⃣ For both: What would it look like to practice courage in communication before a crisis — so the words come a little easier when things get heavy?

🌱 Suicidal ideation in CPtsd is not a sign of failure. It’s a sign your brain is carrying too much alone. Speaking up is not weakness — it’s one of the bravest things you can do.

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Living with CPtsd?
What if recovery meant no longer remaining in survival mode?

I spent years chasing answers to a constant felt sense that something was “wrong” with me. On the outside I appeared functional - wife, mum, business owner. Inside, I was cycling through crippling anxiety and depression with no clear pattern.

Each time I sought help, I was told, variations of “You’re doing better than 98% of my clients - you’ll be fine.” The truth? Most clinicians/practitioners weren’t trained in complex/developmental trauma, making it impossible for them to see how CPtsd was impacting my life and eroding my capacity.

The basics I needed weren’t happening - and my health challenges increased every year.
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